Lost in music
hands on the keys
starting the song
and before I know it
my brain
is disconnected
from my body
eyes trailing the notes
scanning them
translating them to my hands
flying over the keys
playing as fast as I can
faster even than usual
not minding the mistakes
just continuing
creating beautiful melodies
dark ones
pouring out
all my locked up emotions
desperate ones
mirroring my need
to disappear
to stop thinking
to just
be fine
and then I slow to a stop
turning desperate into soft
screaming into whispering
and I lift my hands from the keys
move my eyes from the music
move my foot from the pedal
standing up
walking away
just as drained of emotion
I desperately needed to be
starting the song
and before I know it
my brain
is disconnected
from my body
eyes trailing the notes
scanning them
translating them to my hands
flying over the keys
playing as fast as I can
faster even than usual
not minding the mistakes
just continuing
creating beautiful melodies
dark ones
pouring out
all my locked up emotions
desperate ones
mirroring my need
to disappear
to stop thinking
to just
be fine
and then I slow to a stop
turning desperate into soft
screaming into whispering
and I lift my hands from the keys
move my eyes from the music
move my foot from the pedal
standing up
walking away
just as drained of emotion
I desperately needed to be
